Grib!

Yesterday, as the autumn leaves (or what passes for autumn here in sunny SoCal) were beginning to fall and a green gecko leaf fell onto Lisette’s forest and I picked it out and turned to drop it on the ground, I saw her again.  Grib.  Debbie Grib.

Walking straight ahead, hard bare feet thudding on the pavement, with her companion Heidi Grau behind her.  It’s hard not to see Grib, inventor of the “hard nude” idea, with her shaved head, and her shaved armpits and shaved pussy.  She does it every day -- using cream, I think -- removes every bit of hair from her body.  She looks like an alien, or some other creature, and makes all the other naked girls look downright clothed and modest.  A pretty alien, of course -- with a hard, wiry body -- but with a hardness to her face.  It seems she’s always scowling.

BSC’s nudity policy might sound weird enough to outsiders, but the habits of Grib (everyone refers to her by her last name) are truly bizarre.  I suppose she has a suite room assigned to her somewhere, but she always sleeps outside, on bare concrete, no blankets or pillows.  She bathes outside (usually in one of the creeks behind the dorms) and relieves herself right in front of everyone, facing the passersby as she goes just off the concrete path into the woods, daring everyone to make eye contact.  She far outdoes the “Total Nudes” or “Absolutes”, those girls who give up makeup, blankets, and jewelry, staying totally uncovered all the time, even off campus and even when classes are out.  She makes them seem like wimps -- which is what she calls them anyway.  “Wussy Pussies!” is one of her usual taunts as Akeiko and her gang go by.  Which is why she’s a problem.

Actually there’s something more than that which I find irritating but at the moment I can’t put my finger on it.  Let me list five things that piss me off about Grib:

1.   She taunts the Absolutes (see above), who are a gentle crowd and don’t deserve any grief.  I understand (I think) the philosophical difference -- Akeiko stresses being “natural” and “unclothed”, which is why she thinks keeping all her natural hair is O.K., while Grib stresses total skin exposure.  To us clothed guys, and even to most of the non-Absolute girls, it seems like a silly point of doctrine, certainly nothing to get divisive about.

2.   She’s just generally prickly and unfriendly.  Not someone you go to when you’re looking for a spot in the dining hall and she’s at an empty table.  She doesn’t go to the usual affairs like campus dances or parties.  She’s technically a member of the Ultra Nudity Club, but never participates in any of their functions.

3.   She “presents” when not asked, which is not welcome.  It’s one of the basic Blanke Schande rules that any girl must “present” when asked by a guy -- show whatever body part he wants to see (usually pussy or anus).   It makes the girl oblivious to modesty, and also forces the guys to be polite: he’s not allowed to touch and can’t make any crude remarks.  In fact a guy asking a girl to “present” is a way of telling her she’s pretty, and most girls take it as a compliment.  But the guy is always the initiator, and most guys like to control when they want to see a girl’s private areas.  Grib knows this, of course.  So when she gets up on a table in front of a bunch of guys, turns around and spreads her butt cheeks at us, showing every little wrinkle of her brown asshole, it pisses us off.  “Look, men!” she says.  What’s really aggravating is that she laughs as she shoves her anus into our faces, wiggling her hips, before hopping down and continuing on her way.  At first I thought this might be a form of surrendering her modesty, or maybe tantalizing guys.  Some girls are very aware that in a presenting situation they actually have more power than the guys, and they “show” more than the guys can really handle, with us not being able to touch or anything.  But then Lisette told me that between the girls here, unasked-for displays of the anus are a “p-signal” which means about the same as flipping a middle finger.  When she told me this, I said “a-ha!”, my suspicious confirmed.  Grib really was being an asshole, showing her asshole.

4.   She disrupts just about everything she walks into.  Like at Student Assembly meetings where she stands up on chairs in the back, balancing with her toes curled around the tops of the backs, and asks ridiculous confrontational questions.  Last week it was, “How can you say you speak for all the students?”, without identifying what issue she was talking about.  She asks disruptive questions in class too, when she’s not being disruptive in other ways, like spreading her feet wide on the seats in front of her and pushing her pussy up, closely examining her bare pussy in full view of everyone, meticulously pulling the lips open, checking out her clit.  One time in Earth Science 201 she actually said to Heidi, “My cunt hurts,” and Professor Barclay finally told her to close her legs and shut up.

5.   If she just shaved her body and slept outside it might be weird but not so bad, maybe admirable in a way if she was quiet about it, choosing such a hard life on principle.  But she’s ostentatious about it.  She sleeps on concrete -- in the quad in mid-afternoon.  She shaves her pussy -- right in the middle of the student union, wiping the last traces of the cream from every little crevice.  And she does those damn “erotocize” exercises, usually reserved for the girls’ morning classes, and the usual sit-ups and jumping jacks -- but in the middle of the day, right on the sidewalk.  It’s enough to make you roll your eyes, and a lot of people do.

6.   Make that six things.  She smokes.  Some other girls here smoke too, but Grib smokes with such a tough-girl scowl that it almost makes you laugh.  Like she was sucking on the sourest pickle in the world.  Then she throws it down and stamps it out with her tough heel and rubs it into the pavement.  Ugh!

So why do so many girls find her intriguing? Not that anyone is imitating her, but she has a fascination or a hold on some of them, and I think on many more who are not willing to admit it.  Heidi herself is only halfway to imitating her; she shaves her pussy and armpits but hasn’t quite shaved her head -- she’s got a short Mohawk.  (Not a surprise, because Heidi is lesbian, though it’s anyone’s guess what Grib’s sexuality is.)

I’ve seen a couple of girls bathe in the creek, and sleeping out in the open, on tables or benches, is starting to become a trend.  Or at least you see a lot more of it this year than last year.  And there are more girls shaving their pussies.  Recently I’ve seen some mushroom cuts that are coming close to being Mohawks.

So what is the attraction?  Mabye it’s just the dare.  A sense of living dangerously, or breaking rules, even though no rules are actually being broken.  It would certainly seem so, considering Akeiko.  Akeiko is very nice, and has been a positive cheerleader for the Absolute cause since she took over as President of the Ultra Nudes last year, but is not exactly a rebel in any other way.  Partly it’s her physique -- like a lot of Japanese girls, she has almost no chest and is skinny, seeming like an innocent child.  But mostly it’s the way she acts.  She never curses or anything, and acts like a naive virgin a lot.  (She might, in fact, be a virgin.  She has no boyfriend, at least.)  You should see her bed (she lives in Lisette’s best friend’s suite, and of course in all the girls’ suites the bedrooms have no doors).  Her bed is covered with fluffy toy animals, always a red flag if you’re trying to get to know a girl.  She’s one of the few girls who never uses p-signals (short for “pussy-signals”), those little hand signals involving the genitals that have evolved like a second language that only the girls really understand among themselves.  She’s almost unnaturally cheery, like a 12-year-old Mouseketeer.  And then there’s Grib.

It would be easy to dismiss Grib as a rich kid being rebellious, acting like someone who has no bed to sleep on, but I found out she actually is from a working-class background.  A lot of us are really curious about this, and it turns out she gets some financial aid but also supports herself with being “an artist’s model”.   Modeling for money is something that BSC females shy away from for some reason.  Maybe it’s because they have to be naked all the time and it seems too easy to earn money that way, or tacky somehow.  Grib disappears most nights -- to model.  Or maybe do something else? Someone heard a rumor that she does porn movies in L.A.  It would kind of figure.

I think I hit upon something in that last paragraph.  Grib acts like she’s poor -- no, she acts like she’s a prisoner who has to be kept naked and shaved as part of her punishment, forbidden the comforts of a bed or of indoor plumbing.  And making us feel guilty about it.  That’s number 7 of what bugs me.  Maybe the main point.  I remember a dream I had once about her.  She was on all fours on a table in the quad, and Heidi Grau was behind her, using a big mallet to pound a huge dildo into Grib’s butthole with big roundhouse baseball swings.  Grib was looking ahead at everyone as they passed by, veins popping out in her forehead, teeth gritted, grunting at each new pounding of that huge dildo that must be hurting like hell as it forced open her anal ring and went deep into her gut, angry and determined not to crack at the same time, like a prisoner being tortured, as if to say, “F*** you, Warden!  Unhh!  Go ahead, you bastard!  I -- unhh! -- can take anything you can hand out -- unhh!!”

It was a very powerful dream, and maybe the girls who are intrigued with Grib have had something of the same dream.  Forced to be naked all the time -- but they agreed to it -- forced to “present” to any guy who asked -- but the guys can’t touch -- being vulnerable and strong at the same time, these conflicting factors must drive any Blanke Schande girl to some weird dreams, and weird desires.  And though it’s giving her too much credit to say it was intentional, maybe Grib has tapped into these dreams and desires.  One thing is clear -- she’s tough.  Maybe a kind of toughness that a naked girl would like to emulate.